28!

i was quite upset on my birthday this year. it suddenly occurred to me that i have turned 28. i was quite dumbfounded by the discovery. i passed the first and second week of this month in a terribly cranky mood. this didn't happen last year or the years before that. i think 27 didn't seem that a big number to me! 28 is old! though half of my hair has turned to gray (which is unnatural for a 28 year old by the way :P), i feel like a 20 year old still. i guess that's why it struck me that 30 is only two years away. i won't be in my 20's anymore. i wandered confused and frustrated for two weeks. then somehow, i got used to the 28 year old tag of mine. i think everyone does after a while. i never thought that birthdays would matter, that age would be a factor determining the way i am. but it does in a way. my turning 28 has reminded me that more than half of my life has past, and i'm still where i was 7 years ago. looking around, i see happy, successful people all around me, who knows what to do with their lives; and here i am, 28 years old, only two years away from the number 30, lost, confused, frustrated, without any clue how to deal with this thing called life!

god, i feel depressed again!