nostalgia

the weather was behaving pretty weird for the last couple of months. while we (people) knew exactly what the season is and what the temperature should be like at this time of the year, the weather had no idea whatsoever. so it kind of went crazy and threw at us a scorching sun for a while, then out of nowhere came some sudden shower for a few days, then a no-rain-no-sun-but-only-terrible-humidity for some days. almost all the people in the city is coughing or sneezing these days. me, i just recovered from a month long cold. well, not fully recovered yet, the cough is still there. but my illness is not the reason i started talking about the weather all of a sudden. what i wanted to say was, last night it seemed like the weather is finally getting the hang of the season and started to make some sense. it's end of october, the cold should start to cover the city up day by day, and last night's cool air kind of announced that winter is coming after all.

i don't know if it is me only or it happens to everyone, winter always makes me feel nostalgic. and it's becoming worse as i'm growing older. i miss all the places i have been to all my life. i have this theory that i leave a part of myself in every city i've been to, so every year there's some new place added to the list. so whenever i'm down or nostalgic, i want to run away to one of those places. last night while i was on a rickshaw, feeling a little cold, edinburgh came to my mind. i spent only a weekend there a year ago, but it is by far the most beautiful place i have ever been to. sunny and green, flowery hills and green valleys, happy faces everywhere, there was nothing there not to be liked about. then when i went to sleep i missed coventry, the cold nights i went to sleep wrapped up in that ridiculously large duvet i bought because of a miscalucation about the size of the bed (but it was so comfortable, ummm). the big window with dark blue curtains overlooking the back garden, midnight rain tapping on the windowpane...it was so peaceful! then today when i woke up, i missed barisal. waking up at dawn, going to the backyard for 'pithas' nanu used to make for breakfast. holding the hot 'bhapa pitha' to warm the fingers all numb from cold while watching tiny rays of sun mingling with smoke and fog, the smell of fog and fire burning from the woods...that's the closest to fairyland i could ever get! now talking about nanubari, i have totally forgotten what i missed when i started writing this blog. i miss nanubari. i really wish i could go back there. seriously, it's 2011, shouldn't the time machine be invented by now? ok, at least a teleporter? urggh! the human race is a disgrace!