i never thought i'd be so lost at some point of my life. i always thought i knew what i was getting into. but apparently i didnt. i'm so stupid. and fucked up. i never thought i'd think i'm fucked up. yeah, people might think i'm fucked up. but me thinking i'm fucked up, that's whole another thing. i feel completely lost. i donno what to do. i think i should go sleep. a few hours when i forget everything. but it's worse when i wake up. and i cant cry. i feel like it, but i cant. i guess i'll cry when i go back to my room tomorrow. crying would ease this pain a bit. i hope.