weird time we're in. we have to be someone to be here. if you say 'i don't want to be anything, i want my life to waste away, just like this' - the world around you would fall to pieces. even your friends will look at you with sheer disbelief...you'll be an outcast in a second, an ousider in a world where everybody wants to become somebody. and the one who wants to remain a nobody, refuses to 'develop' herself in any possible way, is the heretic, instantly looked down upon, an insignificant soul, an object of contempt. 

i feel tired. it's better to shut myself down than fighting with a world which doesn't understand, and will never, ever understand.