quite a lot of things are happening these days..many died, many people came from abroad, i went to hall a couple of times, somewhereinblog is on fire for permitting a nick called 'ami rajakar' (what a stupidly stupid thing to do, well, nothing new about it though!), went to cox's bazar the day after eid, christmas is come and gone without my noticing, another year knocking at the door....and i absolutely dont feel like writing. i think its the cold, outside and inside. im coughing and sneezing like hell...and also getting fat just lying in bed all day, oh no, not because i'm sick, because im too lazy to get up! my routine these days goes like this, sleeping till 1.30 pm, when 'bua' comes over i get up to let her in, then i open the pc, read some blogs, chat with anybody who is online, then at around 3 pm i have my lunch, or brunch, or whatever, after that i again go back to the pc, reading blogs, chatting away till vashkar comes home and we both gather some snacks to watch friends!
yes we are watching friends these days...we bought all ten seasons, and i think we'll be able to watch the last one tonight. 10 years in 15 days...what a great achievement! and it has its effects too!..everything in life seems so easy, all complications become totally funny, even labor pains!...but the tragedy is, it actually isn't. life is complicated, u act weird, nobody gives a friendly laugh and love u more, they'll just throw u a disapproving stare or sometimes, even a glare!...u meet some people who u know dislikes u and mistreated u, but u act like everything is normal because u dont want ur other friends to be embarrassed. and that other friends, knowing everything, will stay silent, they'll act everything's normal too...they are people of the world, they know in this harsh world, u should be phonys if u want to keep friends!
and meanwhile, u go to a friends place, this time it's not the phoney ones, the real ones, who'll stand up for u against anything and everything, yes, u go to their place on eid day because u have nowhere else to go, they prepare a dinner for u laboring away in the kitchen all night, and yah, u can't manage to say even a small 'thank you' to them.
friends indeed.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
bekaar chronicles - 3! (we were so young..we were so free,,,, nostalgic craps!)
there's a blogger in somewhereinblog.net who has started writing a series on his dhaka university days. i think he's left the uni a long time ago. he has started noting down the memories he says, as a tribute to the glory days he passed there. not anything of a great literature,,, but once you start reading, you somehow won't be able to stop. may be it's only me, as i am from the same uni and share the same experience and nostalgia...i am quite sure when this series is over im going to miss it.
i was reading the latest post of his, and was wondering, what makes dhaka university so special to us? we know it has so many shortcomings, the list would be endless,,, but still...the time we passed at DU is something we'll cherish all our lives. bunking classes, addafying at the central library (yah!), watching the couples smooching at the corners of tsc, so many useless plans for a tour abroad (the miserable batch of ours!), hopping on a bus to go someplace away (usually it was savar, or narayangonj,, as those were the two farthest places reachable by the university bus service!), watching the kaalboishakhi from the department corridor, getting wet in the rain, june...when the whole campus turned red, yellow and purple with all the krishnachuras, radhachuras and jaarul trees in full bloom, the dreamy voices of the teachers reciting poetry, or quoting tales of faraway lands,, laughing at the classmates who studied all the time..and before exams, wishing we were also doing the same (and of course, forget all about it after the exam!)....
i think i should stop now, or it would go on forever..
i was reading the latest post of his, and was wondering, what makes dhaka university so special to us? we know it has so many shortcomings, the list would be endless,,, but still...the time we passed at DU is something we'll cherish all our lives. bunking classes, addafying at the central library (yah!), watching the couples smooching at the corners of tsc, so many useless plans for a tour abroad (the miserable batch of ours!), hopping on a bus to go someplace away (usually it was savar, or narayangonj,, as those were the two farthest places reachable by the university bus service!), watching the kaalboishakhi from the department corridor, getting wet in the rain, june...when the whole campus turned red, yellow and purple with all the krishnachuras, radhachuras and jaarul trees in full bloom, the dreamy voices of the teachers reciting poetry, or quoting tales of faraway lands,, laughing at the classmates who studied all the time..and before exams, wishing we were also doing the same (and of course, forget all about it after the exam!)....
i think i should stop now, or it would go on forever..
bekaar chronicles - 2!
dont really feel like writing...but the plan was to note the updates everyday...well, i missed yesterday already!
nothing to cross out from the to-do list yet, not even getting close to it actually.. :S. i fixed a date with babli though, it's the day after tomorrow, friday night. sharmee is staying there too i think. i will call tuhi up just to check if she is interested too (possibility 0.1%).
the sachalayatan thing is getting funnier day by day. those guys know that they dont have any strong accusations against vashkar,,, all they keep mentioning about is that vashkar doesnt conform to their system (which is really vague as they cant show any evidence where vashkar didnt conform to their system (whatever that is)) and another thing they keep saying is vashkar has posted some abusing comments with some other taken names. they say they have the ip logs and stuffs. and this is also baseless as they are not showing any evidence of that accusation. this came as a surprise and vashkar has right away denied doing any such thing. but they didnt give any ear to that. and anyways, all they have is the network ip, how can u blame somebody of something that serious with a network ip as in bangladesh u never know how many people log in with the same ip at the same time? crazy or what? haseeb, a member of that group, and friends to the moderators said, 'u cant issue capital punishment based on an educated guess!' most of the members are of his opinion i guess, but the moderators of that group are weird people. whatever, they are entertainment of course... once u can get rid of that pissed off feeling, its quite interesting to watch their quixotic activities! they think they are so important...my god...its so ridiculous!
we might go to cox's bazar on the 16th...that is, if we manage to get the bus ticket and hotel reservation.
nothing to cross out from the to-do list yet, not even getting close to it actually.. :S. i fixed a date with babli though, it's the day after tomorrow, friday night. sharmee is staying there too i think. i will call tuhi up just to check if she is interested too (possibility 0.1%).
the sachalayatan thing is getting funnier day by day. those guys know that they dont have any strong accusations against vashkar,,, all they keep mentioning about is that vashkar doesnt conform to their system (which is really vague as they cant show any evidence where vashkar didnt conform to their system (whatever that is)) and another thing they keep saying is vashkar has posted some abusing comments with some other taken names. they say they have the ip logs and stuffs. and this is also baseless as they are not showing any evidence of that accusation. this came as a surprise and vashkar has right away denied doing any such thing. but they didnt give any ear to that. and anyways, all they have is the network ip, how can u blame somebody of something that serious with a network ip as in bangladesh u never know how many people log in with the same ip at the same time? crazy or what? haseeb, a member of that group, and friends to the moderators said, 'u cant issue capital punishment based on an educated guess!' most of the members are of his opinion i guess, but the moderators of that group are weird people. whatever, they are entertainment of course... once u can get rid of that pissed off feeling, its quite interesting to watch their quixotic activities! they think they are so important...my god...its so ridiculous!
we might go to cox's bazar on the 16th...that is, if we manage to get the bus ticket and hotel reservation.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
bekaar chronicles - 1!
so now i am jobless again. and it is as i suspected it should be, boring! well, no complaints, the decision was mine, it is i who took the steps...and if i decide to choose a boring time, i better get on with it.
i have decided to make a list of the things i should do in this short (!) period of my unemployment. i'll try to list them down here, and then when each of them are accomplished, cross them out one by one. sounds like a pretty good idea, and who can deny the fun of making to-do lists? so folks, here i go!~
1. get a new passport, as my passport will expire next week!
2. register for IELTS exam, set the date preferably before Eid-ul-Azha.
3. PREPARE for the IELTS exam!
4. after getting the new passport, apply for an indian visa as the plan is to go to kolkata on the eid vacation.
5. spend a night or two with babli, as she would be leaving the hall on the 20th.
6. look for possible job options (if any!), target should be to join somewhere from 1st january at the latest!
7. try to have 3 or 4 blue, green and purple hair streaks (preferably before eid).
8. buy some books on 'media communication', study and try to write that god damn 'statement of interest'!
9. all those books that i bought time to time, left them unread, and didnt care much when some days later they were out of sight, well, should try to excavate them and read all of them!
10. same applies for the movies!
11. try to keep daily logs of my achievements!!!
i cant think of anymore right now, but whenever anything else comes to my mind, i'll include that here in the list. whoa! i have a list now...so many things to do, i dont have a minute to lose,,, behold the earth! here i come!!...
but rite now i think i'll have some breakfast (which is boring bread and jam, in case if u are interested!).
i have decided to make a list of the things i should do in this short (!) period of my unemployment. i'll try to list them down here, and then when each of them are accomplished, cross them out one by one. sounds like a pretty good idea, and who can deny the fun of making to-do lists? so folks, here i go!~
1. get a new passport, as my passport will expire next week!
2. register for IELTS exam, set the date preferably before Eid-ul-Azha.
3. PREPARE for the IELTS exam!
4. after getting the new passport, apply for an indian visa as the plan is to go to kolkata on the eid vacation.
5. spend a night or two with babli, as she would be leaving the hall on the 20th.
6. look for possible job options (if any!), target should be to join somewhere from 1st january at the latest!
7. try to have 3 or 4 blue, green and purple hair streaks (preferably before eid).
8. buy some books on 'media communication', study and try to write that god damn 'statement of interest'!
9. all those books that i bought time to time, left them unread, and didnt care much when some days later they were out of sight, well, should try to excavate them and read all of them!
10. same applies for the movies!
11. try to keep daily logs of my achievements!!!
i cant think of anymore right now, but whenever anything else comes to my mind, i'll include that here in the list. whoa! i have a list now...so many things to do, i dont have a minute to lose,,, behold the earth! here i come!!...
but rite now i think i'll have some breakfast (which is boring bread and jam, in case if u are interested!).
Friday, November 23, 2007
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i am quite disturbed by the happenings of the last few days. first vashkar got kicked out (well, almost!) from the blog (they call it a writers community, which, i think, is taking things a bit too far..) he was in for no reason at all. and what surprised me more than this, is that nobody stood for him! nobody at all. well, i know it's only about vashkar and i should not worry too much, but i have been living with this guy for over a year now and i have seen him stand for anybody who was mistreated, or against any action that didnt make sense at all. and now that he is getting the treatment that he certainly doesnt deserve...everybody is keeping mum. they are all pretending its nothing, and may be hoping that vashkar should ignore it and keep mum too. well, he is bound to keep mum, as he is kicked out from there right? nothing he writes there is published in the blog..just before yesterday i saw him posting a comment wishing someone on his birthday, but no, that comment couldnt see the light of day either. what the heck is this? and i dont know how all those people are sitting back there, not saying anything, pretending nobody knows anything while everybody is quite aware of the unfairness of it all! well, may be they dont think its unfair...after all, vashkar is not a 'shusheel' like them,,,he doesnt talk shusheel, he doesnt write shusheel, he isnt full of awe with the shusheel people like all the other people out there. u get a degree from a foreign uni, u pretend that u have a 'high' level of intellectuality, u pretend that u are very concerned about the world and your country, and of course, u pretend that u understand every kind of art and cultural stuff...u r the hero!...and so many people are trying to be a hero its making me sick just to even think of them. just a bunch of phoneys, they are. they pull a mask over their face, and pretend they are all against injustice and unfairness...but be that injustice come from their friends...they decide to ignore it. after all its friendship...and of course, if the friend has a nice mask of a literal, strong, reputable person...they'll try to even justify the misdeed. and these people, these particular people, are trying to say that they are the voices against all injustice and illogical activities that is going on in the country, or anywhere in the universe! urrghhh...i think im going to puke.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
incapabilities, justifications & self-hatred
is there anything in this world that im capable of? i cant be a good friend, i cant be a good partner, i cant be a good daughter, or sister, or anything that my mind can think of. and what makes it worse, i try to justify all my incapabilities all the time. may be thats why i cant make people stay with me for long. i bug them, try to draw sympathy from them, try to find a scapegoat all the time to show them somebody or something else is to blame, till people get pissed off and give me the 'i dont give a fuck' attitude. well, i deserve it. im such a miserable asshole. whats the use of a miserable and pathetic person to live, who doesnt have the capability to do anything other than complaining all the time? god, i hate myself so much...i wish i could kill myself...thinking about that gives me kind of a sadistic satisfaction,,,but no, im not capable of doing that also!
Monday, October 8, 2007
psycho-pathetic!
am i a psychopath? i donno...but sometimes i do think like a psychopath i guess. we (me and vashkar) were on the way back home yesterday night, i was feeling a little insecured...most probably because the taxi driver made a call to someone just after we got in...and my mind went wild wondering what-not that could happen to us...i imagined some guy forcefully getting in the car, taking everything from us, and throwing us into the road afterwards! well, i could be relieved if my weird cranky mind stopped just there,,,but hell no! then i went on imagining vashkar being driven over by a bus,,,me seconds away from another...seeing and hearing his bones crack...all bloody and messy and realizing the same fate is waiting for me...god!..i was almost near tears then..thinking about our lives ending in that way...thinking how lonely and terribly unbearable life would be if i get to live now that vashkar has died such a horrible death...thinking how i wont be able to forget this moment ever in my life...to see vashkar like this...dying before my eyes...bathed in his own blood..
and then when my eyes are starting to get wet because of my hypothetical misery...i come back to this earth...yes, vashkar is safe beside me...holding my hands...looking out of the window watching the rain. i grab his hands tighter and thank allah-god-myself-mycrankyimagination-mycrookedmind-orwhatsoever that he's safe. morbidity at it's best, i call it!
i think im on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
and then when my eyes are starting to get wet because of my hypothetical misery...i come back to this earth...yes, vashkar is safe beside me...holding my hands...looking out of the window watching the rain. i grab his hands tighter and thank allah-god-myself-mycrankyimagination-mycrookedmind-orwhatsoever that he's safe. morbidity at it's best, i call it!
i think im on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
my annoyance (with myself)
i am turning into a no-life machine day by day. when you are into a work-hour based job, it kind of kills your inside slowly,,,well, may be its not true for everybody, but it is surely for me. i am taking only one day off for weekend now...and most of the time that 'weekend' turns into a sleeping spree, because i feel damn tired after 6 days at office from 8 till 8 in the night. i dont come to the office at 8 of course, but i do wake up at 7,,, an hour goes to getting ready, another goes waiting for a transport, and finally, another one in traffic...and after working your ass off, at the end of the month, you find out that it was not enough! others have given far more hours than you...well, that makes me wonder, how could i give more hours? its not like they demand that you do more than you are supposed to do...but when your workmates are always giving more hours than you are giving, it puts a tremendous pressure on your mind...wait a minute, why am i saying 'you',,,it is ME who is facing it..nobody else is. well,,why should the others feel anything about it..they are not having any problem putting in hours. i wonder why i am always lagging behind everybody...and still, i cant have any time to call my own...i wake up at 7, reach home half-sleeping at 10...dinner at 11 (when vashkar calls me up)...then straight to bed at 11.30 or so thinking that anyhow i have to manage to go to the office by 9.30 tomorrow because otherwise i wont be able to make up my monthly target hours! saturdays i wake up at 11/12 or sometimes even at 1 o'clock noon...and afterwards i feel so tired that i spend the day just lying in bed,, like a patient...well that reminds me of prufrock!
i have decided to leave this job. decided that hour based job is not exactly my type of work...i dont have much complain about anybody or anything,,,i just dont fit in this type of work, thats it. the problem is, however bigger my plan to leave the current job and getting a new one is, i dont prepare a cv, and i dont plan to drop it somewhere...i just dream about it, and make big plans for the happy future. well, that sounds just like me, a miserable lazy ass, to be precise.
i have decided to leave this job. decided that hour based job is not exactly my type of work...i dont have much complain about anybody or anything,,,i just dont fit in this type of work, thats it. the problem is, however bigger my plan to leave the current job and getting a new one is, i dont prepare a cv, and i dont plan to drop it somewhere...i just dream about it, and make big plans for the happy future. well, that sounds just like me, a miserable lazy ass, to be precise.
Friday, August 3, 2007
comfortably numb
i dont know what is happening to me these days. but are things happening to me at all? its more like things are happening to everybody else around me and im just watching and going with the flow. the most alarming thing is, i dont feel anything...even the alarm! may be its better this way, may be it's not. who knows?
thinking about leaving my job. the reason is as usual, unusual! i dont feel that the team needs me. it's kinda weird, cause nobody directly said or indicated that, except one. and i shouldn't go by one person's indication only, i know that...but i feel uncomfortable with the situation. im always being unsure of myself there, i dont know why...is it the atmosphere? or the indication that im too dumb for the job? or may be its because they still kind of consider myself as an entry-level after 6 months of work? or may be i still am in the entry level. why not? 6 months is not much...and anyways, i dont go to office 7 days a week, dont work day and night, dont eat and sleep work like the others do,,,i was never a workaholic, and never will be. not that anybody is pushing me to be a workaholic...
there i go bla-bla-ing again. wish i could write something funny or intellectual...wish i could interact with people more...wish i could escape somewhere...escape from this state of my mind,,, escape from the people i know,,, from the known boring sky that im under, from this dull city, from this terribly mundane world. or even better, from myself!
thinking about leaving my job. the reason is as usual, unusual! i dont feel that the team needs me. it's kinda weird, cause nobody directly said or indicated that, except one. and i shouldn't go by one person's indication only, i know that...but i feel uncomfortable with the situation. im always being unsure of myself there, i dont know why...is it the atmosphere? or the indication that im too dumb for the job? or may be its because they still kind of consider myself as an entry-level after 6 months of work? or may be i still am in the entry level. why not? 6 months is not much...and anyways, i dont go to office 7 days a week, dont work day and night, dont eat and sleep work like the others do,,,i was never a workaholic, and never will be. not that anybody is pushing me to be a workaholic...
there i go bla-bla-ing again. wish i could write something funny or intellectual...wish i could interact with people more...wish i could escape somewhere...escape from this state of my mind,,, escape from the people i know,,, from the known boring sky that im under, from this dull city, from this terribly mundane world. or even better, from myself!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
long awaited blues...
dhrubo is in dhaka right now. he left his number in an offline message on my messenger when i was out. it was a couple of days back, and i dont remember how i felt after coming to know that he's finally in bangladesh. i didnt do anything, i mean, i didnt flip out or do a dance or go completely hysterical...i just saved his number on my phone, and called him. talked to him as if he were a friend from the past, not a best friend, just a good friend. then we talked on the messenger for a while, he too, like me, seems not to like to talk on the phone very much. we decided to meet the next day, which was the day before yesterday, when nobody will be home.
what did we do when we first saw each other? nope, we didnt run and hug each other tight, or hold hands, or do anything that we planned in those endless conversations that we had one and a half years ago...we met as if we were two distant friends meeting each other, doing the usual social talk, keeping a safe distance, he joking about my untidiness, me trying to bug him about his going-to-be wife, and so on..
i dont remember how we were lying in each others arms just one hour later...was it me? was it him? who cares anyways? we were there, just as we dreamed a year and a half ago...the difference was back then we thought it'd be forever, but now we know that we belong to two completely separate worlds. i dont know what happened to me, i suddenly wanted it all...almost begging him for more,,, pushing him further and further...and then he couldnt take it anymore and said something that i wont forget for the rest of my life...and that was the moment i realized, he doesnt love me! i dont know if he ever did, i could never know, but i know he doesnt love me now. i didnt cry, nope, haven't shed a drop of tear since then, but something broke inside me just then...something is lost forever...and i dont know if i'll ever be able to get out of this lost feeling...its irreplaceable, its irreparable.
everything went nicely afterwards,,, i told him that i understand his feelings and its ok, and apologized for losing my head, he 'its okay'-ed me back...then we switched back to the social talk again, went out to meet vashkar in his office and had pizza together...we were back to our 'old friends' mode...and it works! in that mode we can communicate...without any guilt or sympathy coming between us...and no shitty love thing of course!
he said he cant love someone who loves another person along with him at the same time. i think he doesnt even believe that such a thing is possible. well, i didnt believe it either until i got caught in this labyrinth. vashkar understands, and he is trying to take everything easy, but i know how hard it is for him. i wish i could erase those two months from my memory forever like they did in that movie. everything will just be perfect then. well, may be. and anyways, thats the same thing i wished while i was having those all-day-all-night-long conversations with dhrubo, erasing the memories of the past. its no use, i cant erase all the memories of the past. nobody can. i have to live with them. life is such a mess sometimes!
what did we do when we first saw each other? nope, we didnt run and hug each other tight, or hold hands, or do anything that we planned in those endless conversations that we had one and a half years ago...we met as if we were two distant friends meeting each other, doing the usual social talk, keeping a safe distance, he joking about my untidiness, me trying to bug him about his going-to-be wife, and so on..
i dont remember how we were lying in each others arms just one hour later...was it me? was it him? who cares anyways? we were there, just as we dreamed a year and a half ago...the difference was back then we thought it'd be forever, but now we know that we belong to two completely separate worlds. i dont know what happened to me, i suddenly wanted it all...almost begging him for more,,, pushing him further and further...and then he couldnt take it anymore and said something that i wont forget for the rest of my life...and that was the moment i realized, he doesnt love me! i dont know if he ever did, i could never know, but i know he doesnt love me now. i didnt cry, nope, haven't shed a drop of tear since then, but something broke inside me just then...something is lost forever...and i dont know if i'll ever be able to get out of this lost feeling...its irreplaceable, its irreparable.
everything went nicely afterwards,,, i told him that i understand his feelings and its ok, and apologized for losing my head, he 'its okay'-ed me back...then we switched back to the social talk again, went out to meet vashkar in his office and had pizza together...we were back to our 'old friends' mode...and it works! in that mode we can communicate...without any guilt or sympathy coming between us...and no shitty love thing of course!
he said he cant love someone who loves another person along with him at the same time. i think he doesnt even believe that such a thing is possible. well, i didnt believe it either until i got caught in this labyrinth. vashkar understands, and he is trying to take everything easy, but i know how hard it is for him. i wish i could erase those two months from my memory forever like they did in that movie. everything will just be perfect then. well, may be. and anyways, thats the same thing i wished while i was having those all-day-all-night-long conversations with dhrubo, erasing the memories of the past. its no use, i cant erase all the memories of the past. nobody can. i have to live with them. life is such a mess sometimes!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
basking in miyazaki sun! (feverish gibberish 2)
two weeks. sounds like a long time...but is it really? this week's almost over, then there's only one left, which will be gone in no time. then again will start the mundane 9-whatever work. which is better? sitting at home surfing the net, watching movies alone, reading a book, getting bored of being alone,,, or office? may be we should do both. like, 3.5 days at work, and 3.5 days spent at home? hmm...i dont know whats gotten into me..thinking all these rubbish.
im watching miyazaki like crazy these days. one per day! today went with 'castle in the sky', yesterday it was 'kikis delivery service'. after watching spirited away, these films remind me of herge's The Adventures of Jo, Zette and Jocko. good enough, but not quite like The Adventures of Tintin...which is more mature, and more detailed. howl's moving castle is good too, but that lovey dovey thing ruined it a bit. im not against love or anything like that, but love is so cliche in animations. one thing i really loved about 'kiki's delivery service' and 'castle in the sky', that is flying is the main theme for both of them. everybody wants to fly, children or grown-ups. i think every child at least once in his/her life gave a thought about being a pilot and exploring beyond the sky. its really fascinating to see that wonderful pirate airplane, and we get to see the engine room too! the watch-tower (the crow's nest) could be turned into a kite and can be flown high up with the string binding it to the main airship! imagine that in disney movies...huh! they'll just make some animals, toys and fishes talk and go for a kid-like adventure! in miyazaki's films there're so much imagination at work!...may be that's why i liked harry potter, for all the new things...for that wonderful out of the world experience!
well, look at me, i dont exactly know why im suddenly being so excited about miyazaki films...am i still a bit feverish? hope not.
there's some talk about going to cox's bazar this thursday. some of our friends are going. vashkar is quite interested...i'm not so sure...but may be a change will do some good to my health? well, that's what doctors recommend sometimes right? change of weather? may be the fresh air at sea will do miracle to my health....
urrrrghh! to whom am i addressing my excuses huh? if i go i'll go, if i wont, i wont. im all independent self-deciding woman. umm.. or may be i should toss a coin or something? :S
im watching miyazaki like crazy these days. one per day! today went with 'castle in the sky', yesterday it was 'kikis delivery service'. after watching spirited away, these films remind me of herge's The Adventures of Jo, Zette and Jocko. good enough, but not quite like The Adventures of Tintin...which is more mature, and more detailed. howl's moving castle is good too, but that lovey dovey thing ruined it a bit. im not against love or anything like that, but love is so cliche in animations. one thing i really loved about 'kiki's delivery service' and 'castle in the sky', that is flying is the main theme for both of them. everybody wants to fly, children or grown-ups. i think every child at least once in his/her life gave a thought about being a pilot and exploring beyond the sky. its really fascinating to see that wonderful pirate airplane, and we get to see the engine room too! the watch-tower (the crow's nest) could be turned into a kite and can be flown high up with the string binding it to the main airship! imagine that in disney movies...huh! they'll just make some animals, toys and fishes talk and go for a kid-like adventure! in miyazaki's films there're so much imagination at work!...may be that's why i liked harry potter, for all the new things...for that wonderful out of the world experience!
well, look at me, i dont exactly know why im suddenly being so excited about miyazaki films...am i still a bit feverish? hope not.
there's some talk about going to cox's bazar this thursday. some of our friends are going. vashkar is quite interested...i'm not so sure...but may be a change will do some good to my health? well, that's what doctors recommend sometimes right? change of weather? may be the fresh air at sea will do miracle to my health....
urrrrghh! to whom am i addressing my excuses huh? if i go i'll go, if i wont, i wont. im all independent self-deciding woman. umm.. or may be i should toss a coin or something? :S
Monday, July 9, 2007
feverish gibberish!
i took two weeks off from the office. nope, its not for a vacation in paris or the seychelles (ah, how i wish..), its for the horrible ugly cough i got. the cough is not that bad these days...but the weakness is almost killing me. as long as i stay in bed, read books, write a blog, im fine. but the moment i step outside, my legs start to think they are marshmallows!
the team leader isnt very happy about the whole thing i think. well, hello, I am the sufferer here! you are there all healthy and lively, working away the hours, not a worry in the world, well, look at me, pale, drained, coughing my inside out, bedridden, worrying every minute if this shitty state will be with me the rest of my life...god, i pity myself! never ever did i think something like this could happen. ok, i always did look sickly, but i seldom fell sick rite? its horrible, to be like this. not that i feel like jumping to work, i was never a workaholic, a lazy-bum is the word which describes me perfectly. but still, i dont feel good inside a sick body. i dont want to be strong and all like schwarzenegger or whatever, just a body that is not coughing all the time, not weakened by the change of the weather, and whose limbs behave just like themselves. yes, im quite happy with that. errr, why do these ramblings of mine remind me of professor 'enry 'iggins? better stop this topic here.
so two weeks in my hand, should i make a list of the things i should do? umm..well, on second thought, may be i shouldnt, the future of any to-do list i made in the past was something i should not talk about. anyways, i think im gonna watch some movies, read some good books, and try to write reviews on them (ah, sounds so good!). and try to put an entry here everyday? well, lets just think about it ok?
the team leader isnt very happy about the whole thing i think. well, hello, I am the sufferer here! you are there all healthy and lively, working away the hours, not a worry in the world, well, look at me, pale, drained, coughing my inside out, bedridden, worrying every minute if this shitty state will be with me the rest of my life...god, i pity myself! never ever did i think something like this could happen. ok, i always did look sickly, but i seldom fell sick rite? its horrible, to be like this. not that i feel like jumping to work, i was never a workaholic, a lazy-bum is the word which describes me perfectly. but still, i dont feel good inside a sick body. i dont want to be strong and all like schwarzenegger or whatever, just a body that is not coughing all the time, not weakened by the change of the weather, and whose limbs behave just like themselves. yes, im quite happy with that. errr, why do these ramblings of mine remind me of professor 'enry 'iggins? better stop this topic here.
so two weeks in my hand, should i make a list of the things i should do? umm..well, on second thought, may be i shouldnt, the future of any to-do list i made in the past was something i should not talk about. anyways, i think im gonna watch some movies, read some good books, and try to write reviews on them (ah, sounds so good!). and try to put an entry here everyday? well, lets just think about it ok?
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
back again (airport jinx and etc.)
im back again in good old dhaka city after a 31 hours hell of a journey! we had transits through frankfurt and abu dhabi. in frankfurt we had 16 hours transit and no hotel was provided because of our stupid travel plan. well, we had plans to meet some bloggers there who took us to kassel..it was a two hours train journey from frankfurt. the bloggers were great, most of them have come from different parts of germany just to meet us. i often wonder, is there any nation that can beat bengali hospitality? i guess not.
the journey was disastrous from the beginning. our flight was at 6.30 in the morning so we had to start for the airport at 4 am by taxi. there was only one queue for all lufthansa flights, so we lined up. after sometime, bending down to put a name tag on my bag, i noticed that my fly is wide open for the whole world to see. fantastic! i came all the way from the hotel to the airport with my flies open! going red from head to toe, i quickly zipped up, wishing i was dead then and there. i dont know why, everytime im coming back from somewhereby air, the most embarrassing things will happen to me in the airport, one incident excelling the other.
anyways, we were able to make the flight despite being in the longest queue in the world, there were some uncertainty about the luggages, but they reached safely just like we did. i am happy to see my fav dhaka again. only unexpected thing is the weather, i thought it was raining here, instead, the weather's almost like that in abu dhabi, terribly hot. to some extent, its worse than abu dhabi, the humidity here is unbearable. but there're clouds in the sky, i hope it'll be raining soon.
i think i wont go to office tomorrow. from the day after again the boring days will start, and im sure i'll start wishing that i were in oslo again!
the journey was disastrous from the beginning. our flight was at 6.30 in the morning so we had to start for the airport at 4 am by taxi. there was only one queue for all lufthansa flights, so we lined up. after sometime, bending down to put a name tag on my bag, i noticed that my fly is wide open for the whole world to see. fantastic! i came all the way from the hotel to the airport with my flies open! going red from head to toe, i quickly zipped up, wishing i was dead then and there. i dont know why, everytime im coming back from somewhereby air, the most embarrassing things will happen to me in the airport, one incident excelling the other.
anyways, we were able to make the flight despite being in the longest queue in the world, there were some uncertainty about the luggages, but they reached safely just like we did. i am happy to see my fav dhaka again. only unexpected thing is the weather, i thought it was raining here, instead, the weather's almost like that in abu dhabi, terribly hot. to some extent, its worse than abu dhabi, the humidity here is unbearable. but there're clouds in the sky, i hope it'll be raining soon.
i think i wont go to office tomorrow. from the day after again the boring days will start, and im sure i'll start wishing that i were in oslo again!
Thursday, June 21, 2007
oslo diaries 3
june 21, 2007
3 more days to go. i'll be back again in my sweet, lovely, polluted, crowded, noisy, dirty, dangerous dhaka. in fact, i kind of miss the pollution. too pure makes me sick. though i've been as messy as i can, which is a bit difficult with all the colleagues trying to teach me civil manners, i'm trying hard to be as myself as possible. i wont be mannered, i wont be disciplined. i left my family to be myself for gods sake!
i dont know what im so angry about. every little thing is getting on my nerves. i just want to go home and sleep in my bed for around 10 hours or so, then i'll be ok i guess. may be im just homesick. or only boyfriend-sick may be? who knows.
its 12 here, when i look outside it feels like its only 6 in the evening. the best part of having the sun shining all the way till 9 is you have loads of time in your hands. which is good, as almost everything is open till 9 here, you can hang around, take a walk, go to the islands, or the beach, or to any park..gosh they have so many parks here! well, they had nothing else to do with this vast mass of lands perhaps. the day before yesterday the office took us to some place called klobberhaugen, which is a log cabin in the forests up the mountains. there was a small lake too, with a little jetty, standing on the jetty gives you some kind of an endless feeling, water all around you, little waves rippling away, far at the other side of the lake the mountain goes up covered in pine trees...gives you a feeling of paradise. i stood there for sometime in the evening when we reached there...well, it was dark, so i guess it was not exactly evening, around 12 am may be. the water was pitch black in that semi-dark light, the mountain with the trees silouhetted against the ashening sky, well, it was almost like a dream. well, i know im being a bit romantic, but hell, it was so damn romantic! how can i help it?!
the next day after breakfast i found the lovebirds lost somewhere..so i went to the jetty again and sat down for sometime by myself. they went to take a walk around the lake, i found out later. i was glad i didnt go with them, i needed sometime alone i think. sitting by the water watching the tiny little waves pass by, well, its my favourite passtime anyways. but somehow, it makes me feel terribly lonely. i went around with a terribly bad mood yesterday. i dont feel comfy hanging out alone, well, sometimes its fun, but all the time...nope! even though im always left behind because i walk so slowly, still, i like to hang out with people, people i know. i've been with these two colleagues of mine since i arrived here, wherever they went, i followed. but now i feel like an intruder between them. most probably they dont even think about it, but it somehow gives me the feeling that im disturbing them or something like that. and anyways, silent love is something that i cant take. it may be sweet and all for those who experience it, but it kind of freaks me out. really!
so i think i'll be left to myself these 3 days that im here. well, its only three days after all.
i dont know what im so angry about. every little thing is getting on my nerves. i just want to go home and sleep in my bed for around 10 hours or so, then i'll be ok i guess. may be im just homesick. or only boyfriend-sick may be? who knows.
its 12 here, when i look outside it feels like its only 6 in the evening. the best part of having the sun shining all the way till 9 is you have loads of time in your hands. which is good, as almost everything is open till 9 here, you can hang around, take a walk, go to the islands, or the beach, or to any park..gosh they have so many parks here! well, they had nothing else to do with this vast mass of lands perhaps. the day before yesterday the office took us to some place called klobberhaugen, which is a log cabin in the forests up the mountains. there was a small lake too, with a little jetty, standing on the jetty gives you some kind of an endless feeling, water all around you, little waves rippling away, far at the other side of the lake the mountain goes up covered in pine trees...gives you a feeling of paradise. i stood there for sometime in the evening when we reached there...well, it was dark, so i guess it was not exactly evening, around 12 am may be. the water was pitch black in that semi-dark light, the mountain with the trees silouhetted against the ashening sky, well, it was almost like a dream. well, i know im being a bit romantic, but hell, it was so damn romantic! how can i help it?!
the next day after breakfast i found the lovebirds lost somewhere..so i went to the jetty again and sat down for sometime by myself. they went to take a walk around the lake, i found out later. i was glad i didnt go with them, i needed sometime alone i think. sitting by the water watching the tiny little waves pass by, well, its my favourite passtime anyways. but somehow, it makes me feel terribly lonely. i went around with a terribly bad mood yesterday. i dont feel comfy hanging out alone, well, sometimes its fun, but all the time...nope! even though im always left behind because i walk so slowly, still, i like to hang out with people, people i know. i've been with these two colleagues of mine since i arrived here, wherever they went, i followed. but now i feel like an intruder between them. most probably they dont even think about it, but it somehow gives me the feeling that im disturbing them or something like that. and anyways, silent love is something that i cant take. it may be sweet and all for those who experience it, but it kind of freaks me out. really!
so i think i'll be left to myself these 3 days that im here. well, its only three days after all.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
oslo diaries 2
12th june, 2007
never thought there'd be mosquitos in here, and this big too! i've been sitting outside for sometime and in a couple of minutes my hands and feet are swollen like hell by mosquito bites. there was none in the city, i guess its the countryside. no place is paradise after all.
i kinda like this place we've been shifted to now. its a youth hostel, so lots of running and jumping and playing and shouting going around. its situated on top of a little hill, you just cross the hedges and you have the slopes in front of you to climb down..there's a thin road along the slopes which is a biking track i think. except for the scorching sun, which seems to be part of the attraction for the european tourists over here, everything is beautiful, well, not breathtakenly, but beautiful enough!
yesterday we went to a beach in a place called 'huk'. when i hear the word 'beach', i picture a long shoreline, the waves crashing on the sands, the wind is so strong it almost sweeps you away, its nothing like that here. its a small and terribly crowded place, but people were going like crazy over it. the difference between cox's bazar beach and this place is that this beach is really clean. the water is clean, you wouldnt think twice or thrice before getting into the water as you'd do in cox's bazar, people dont litter around, they have kept it really nice and tidy. given this tidyness, cox's bazaar beach could be the most wonderful tourist place in the world. yes, i believe that, no nationalism attached!
we stayed for a couple of hours there, one of my colleagues got into the water, another one threw rocks at me, it was pretty fun. i didnt get into the water, i dont exactly know why, may be because didnt want to get into too much hassle of taking off the shoes and socks and folding the jeans and stuffs. im such a lazyass.
on the way back here we lost our way. our guide tipu bhai got us off from the bus at an unknown place, we then climbed up a hill, climbed down a hill, went to the right, went to the left, climbed a hill again, till we lost track of time and place, then we found out that we've been walking at the opposite direction all that time, so we turned back and was going like forever till we got to our place finally. well, it was a good experience, walking up and down the countryside amongst so much greenery. wonder how living here in this beautiful place would be, though i think it'd be terribly boring...beautiful is beautiful to the eyes as long as you see it for a short time, not always.
todays monday, so got to go to the office in the morning, the guys as usual left me and anika alone, so we had to find the busstation ourselves. it was not that tough actually, people are really friendly here and everyone speaks english, so thats very helpful too. we asked directions and got to the place easily. didnt go anywhere after office today. came and had dinner and sat on the grass for sometime till the cold and the mosquitos drove me away from there. so here i am with droopy eyes, staring at the screen and yawning, dreading waking up in the morning tomorrow.. i dont want to go to the office, i dont wanna go to the office, i dont wanna go to the office, i dont wannna go to the office.....
never thought there'd be mosquitos in here, and this big too! i've been sitting outside for sometime and in a couple of minutes my hands and feet are swollen like hell by mosquito bites. there was none in the city, i guess its the countryside. no place is paradise after all.
i kinda like this place we've been shifted to now. its a youth hostel, so lots of running and jumping and playing and shouting going around. its situated on top of a little hill, you just cross the hedges and you have the slopes in front of you to climb down..there's a thin road along the slopes which is a biking track i think. except for the scorching sun, which seems to be part of the attraction for the european tourists over here, everything is beautiful, well, not breathtakenly, but beautiful enough!
yesterday we went to a beach in a place called 'huk'. when i hear the word 'beach', i picture a long shoreline, the waves crashing on the sands, the wind is so strong it almost sweeps you away, its nothing like that here. its a small and terribly crowded place, but people were going like crazy over it. the difference between cox's bazar beach and this place is that this beach is really clean. the water is clean, you wouldnt think twice or thrice before getting into the water as you'd do in cox's bazar, people dont litter around, they have kept it really nice and tidy. given this tidyness, cox's bazaar beach could be the most wonderful tourist place in the world. yes, i believe that, no nationalism attached!
we stayed for a couple of hours there, one of my colleagues got into the water, another one threw rocks at me, it was pretty fun. i didnt get into the water, i dont exactly know why, may be because didnt want to get into too much hassle of taking off the shoes and socks and folding the jeans and stuffs. im such a lazyass.
on the way back here we lost our way. our guide tipu bhai got us off from the bus at an unknown place, we then climbed up a hill, climbed down a hill, went to the right, went to the left, climbed a hill again, till we lost track of time and place, then we found out that we've been walking at the opposite direction all that time, so we turned back and was going like forever till we got to our place finally. well, it was a good experience, walking up and down the countryside amongst so much greenery. wonder how living here in this beautiful place would be, though i think it'd be terribly boring...beautiful is beautiful to the eyes as long as you see it for a short time, not always.
todays monday, so got to go to the office in the morning, the guys as usual left me and anika alone, so we had to find the busstation ourselves. it was not that tough actually, people are really friendly here and everyone speaks english, so thats very helpful too. we asked directions and got to the place easily. didnt go anywhere after office today. came and had dinner and sat on the grass for sometime till the cold and the mosquitos drove me away from there. so here i am with droopy eyes, staring at the screen and yawning, dreading waking up in the morning tomorrow.. i dont want to go to the office, i dont wanna go to the office, i dont wanna go to the office, i dont wannna go to the office.....
Monday, June 11, 2007
oslo diaries
9th june, 2007
so ive been in norway for almost a week now..and its,,,lets say,`not bad´! im seeing places, which i very seldom do...and the places are nice...beautiful valleys and parks...its nice! it took a 16 hour journey to come here from dhaka. by the time i reached oslo i was too damn tired to look around..to make things worse, the office started just from the next day. yah..i didnt get any chance to recover from my terrible jetlag. well, i think ive left that behind me now, i mean the jetlag, and the homesickness too. but i still hate waking up at 7 and rushing to the office. wish it was just a tour instead of a training for work. :(
the only noteworthy thing i saw here so far is the frogner park..its a huge park...with a lot of sculptures. and a vast amount of land, green fields, slopes, fountains and all that. very peaceful...makes you want to lie down and relax. may be i'll go there again before i leave. the place where we are staying (temporarily, because the company couldnt manage any room for 21 days in a row..so we are staying at this place for 7 days, then going to some youth hostel for the next week, then again come back to this hotel for the last 7 days!!) is very close to slottsparken which is the royal palace..theres a park there also..but as i live beside it..i just ignored it..may be i'll explore it just before i leave, that is, if i get the time! in fact, we have to pass through it everyday on the way to the office, may be thats why i keep delaying the visit.
saw the pirates at the 'collosseum' which they say is the largest cinema in northern europe. its kool to see from the outside...but the lounge inside has so little space, its always crammed with people. but the theater is large, if only the movie was good, it couldve been a wonderful experience.
for the welcome dinner we went to a place called holmenkollen which is near the skijump. the skijump looked good, may be i'll try to do a little 'jumping' from there sometime. the restaurant was good, we sat in a terrace type of place from where you can see the whole city of oslo and beyond. the fjords looked lovely from up there..it looked like some faraway land, you could very well imagine the lights from the islands were some monsters eyes or something like that.
god its so boring writing this way...the reason why i started to write this entry is to keep a track of my wanderings here in norway..never thought it'd get so boring... i better stop here.
10th june, 2007
watched an japanese anime in the morning,,,well, not exactly morning, but where the sun sets at 12 am, you can very well call 2 pm 'morning', cant you? the anime was called naussicaa. the first time i heard the name i thought it had something to do with nausal activities.. :S ..actually its about a princess who is called naussicaa, she's saving everyone throughout the movie - humans, insects and even trees..and in the end she saves the whole world! well, it was a japanese anime after all!
after the movie i went out and spent the rest of day wandering through the streets. the summer festival started yesterday though i got to see it today. its full of life, yes, life! it was good to move through all that bustle and hustle..people buying and selling, eating and drinking, everyone was so lively! it almost felt like i was in london. the only difference is the price i guess. no wonder norway is called one of the most expensive cities in the world. just the other day i saw a pair of slippers which cost 250 krones, which, back home, will cost around 11 krones or so. its ridiculous, the prices of things here.
went to a castle in the afternoon, which was around 8 o'clock. i love castles. those stone gray walls, trenches, canons kind of hypnotises me all the time. this castle is called the akershus castle, i didnt have the chance to enter it because by the time ive finished watching the outside it was closing time, but the outside is pretty good too. the castle is overlooking the fjord, you have a wonderful view of the dock and the sea from there. there were so many wild flowers in bloom, for sometime i think i lost myself rolling among them. im sure if i lived here i'd have gone there whenenver i felt down or wanted to be alone. the lovers use it for spending a cosy time, who knows, may be i'd have done the same too!
on my way back i bought my dinner from a deli, the dinner was a yucky thing called vindaloo, i was so tired and hungry i ate all of that. im longing for a nice decent meal, these european/indian dishes dont suit me at all.
tomorrow we change the hotel. we are being moved to a shitty youth hostel. we girls are better off than the boys, there's only one room for the five of them, while we girls get one for three. well, something is better than nothing i guess.
so ive been in norway for almost a week now..and its,,,lets say,`not bad´! im seeing places, which i very seldom do...and the places are nice...beautiful valleys and parks...its nice! it took a 16 hour journey to come here from dhaka. by the time i reached oslo i was too damn tired to look around..to make things worse, the office started just from the next day. yah..i didnt get any chance to recover from my terrible jetlag. well, i think ive left that behind me now, i mean the jetlag, and the homesickness too. but i still hate waking up at 7 and rushing to the office. wish it was just a tour instead of a training for work. :(
the only noteworthy thing i saw here so far is the frogner park..its a huge park...with a lot of sculptures. and a vast amount of land, green fields, slopes, fountains and all that. very peaceful...makes you want to lie down and relax. may be i'll go there again before i leave. the place where we are staying (temporarily, because the company couldnt manage any room for 21 days in a row..so we are staying at this place for 7 days, then going to some youth hostel for the next week, then again come back to this hotel for the last 7 days!!) is very close to slottsparken which is the royal palace..theres a park there also..but as i live beside it..i just ignored it..may be i'll explore it just before i leave, that is, if i get the time! in fact, we have to pass through it everyday on the way to the office, may be thats why i keep delaying the visit.
saw the pirates at the 'collosseum' which they say is the largest cinema in northern europe. its kool to see from the outside...but the lounge inside has so little space, its always crammed with people. but the theater is large, if only the movie was good, it couldve been a wonderful experience.
for the welcome dinner we went to a place called holmenkollen which is near the skijump. the skijump looked good, may be i'll try to do a little 'jumping' from there sometime. the restaurant was good, we sat in a terrace type of place from where you can see the whole city of oslo and beyond. the fjords looked lovely from up there..it looked like some faraway land, you could very well imagine the lights from the islands were some monsters eyes or something like that.
god its so boring writing this way...the reason why i started to write this entry is to keep a track of my wanderings here in norway..never thought it'd get so boring... i better stop here.
10th june, 2007
watched an japanese anime in the morning,,,well, not exactly morning, but where the sun sets at 12 am, you can very well call 2 pm 'morning', cant you? the anime was called naussicaa. the first time i heard the name i thought it had something to do with nausal activities.. :S ..actually its about a princess who is called naussicaa, she's saving everyone throughout the movie - humans, insects and even trees..and in the end she saves the whole world! well, it was a japanese anime after all!
after the movie i went out and spent the rest of day wandering through the streets. the summer festival started yesterday though i got to see it today. its full of life, yes, life! it was good to move through all that bustle and hustle..people buying and selling, eating and drinking, everyone was so lively! it almost felt like i was in london. the only difference is the price i guess. no wonder norway is called one of the most expensive cities in the world. just the other day i saw a pair of slippers which cost 250 krones, which, back home, will cost around 11 krones or so. its ridiculous, the prices of things here.
went to a castle in the afternoon, which was around 8 o'clock. i love castles. those stone gray walls, trenches, canons kind of hypnotises me all the time. this castle is called the akershus castle, i didnt have the chance to enter it because by the time ive finished watching the outside it was closing time, but the outside is pretty good too. the castle is overlooking the fjord, you have a wonderful view of the dock and the sea from there. there were so many wild flowers in bloom, for sometime i think i lost myself rolling among them. im sure if i lived here i'd have gone there whenenver i felt down or wanted to be alone. the lovers use it for spending a cosy time, who knows, may be i'd have done the same too!
on my way back i bought my dinner from a deli, the dinner was a yucky thing called vindaloo, i was so tired and hungry i ate all of that. im longing for a nice decent meal, these european/indian dishes dont suit me at all.
tomorrow we change the hotel. we are being moved to a shitty youth hostel. we girls are better off than the boys, there's only one room for the five of them, while we girls get one for three. well, something is better than nothing i guess.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
birthday, stupidity and others..
sometimes my stupidity leaves me totally dumbfounded.
today's one of my colleague's birthday. she was planning for the party for a long time...discussing with me about what the menu would be, whom to invite and whom to not invite, what should be the shape of the cake etc. etc. i dont know why she asked ME about these things though...cause im no party expert or anything... in fact, im not a good host either. but that doesnt matter, the thing that matters is i forgot her birthday! i mean i didnt actually forget it, it was there before my eyes all the time,,, perhaps my subconscious chose to ignore it. but why?
ok...lets not go deeper... that'll make things more complicated i think.
but the most weird thing is...she called me this morning... i told her that i might be a little late, asked her about how's her cooking going on, how the cake's coming along and all those gibberish, but absolutely forgot to wish her! to make things worse, i remembered that after almost a couple of hours she called. isnt that cool?
i wish i was spending more time in this earth rather than the world that belongs to me only!
today's one of my colleague's birthday. she was planning for the party for a long time...discussing with me about what the menu would be, whom to invite and whom to not invite, what should be the shape of the cake etc. etc. i dont know why she asked ME about these things though...cause im no party expert or anything... in fact, im not a good host either. but that doesnt matter, the thing that matters is i forgot her birthday! i mean i didnt actually forget it, it was there before my eyes all the time,,, perhaps my subconscious chose to ignore it. but why?
ok...lets not go deeper... that'll make things more complicated i think.
but the most weird thing is...she called me this morning... i told her that i might be a little late, asked her about how's her cooking going on, how the cake's coming along and all those gibberish, but absolutely forgot to wish her! to make things worse, i remembered that after almost a couple of hours she called. isnt that cool?
i wish i was spending more time in this earth rather than the world that belongs to me only!
Friday, May 11, 2007
The end is the beginning..The beginning is the end??
so here i am...again trying to keep a daily log...which as usual i guess will end up unfed, and finally starved to death. I dont remember how many times in life i've decided to keep a diary, started one with great enthusiasm, continued for a month or two, then slowly let it get lost in the jungle of my books and stuffs. every single time i start with the resolution that this time im gonna make it..this time im gonna keep this till the day i die..and so on...
i think this time,, its no better,,the same thoughts are crossing my mind,, as usual!
origin of the word 'trona'!!
why are all the beautiful words always taken whenever you want to publish a blog or open an email account? i tried for hours with all the words i like in english..not a single one is available! even the bangla words are booked! I tried for almost two hours with patience like a saint,,then I thought now I deserve to be a little impatient so I tried words like 'jhamela', 'jontrona' etc...and they were all taken too. I was so impatient by that time, I typed some letters randomly and bingo!! that one is available...but this time the green letters made me want to smash the screen...there's no way I'm going to register my account as 'mdkndsa'! So I tried 'jontrona' again, and I saw the red words again telling me to stop being stupid coz this wasnt available...I was too tired to try by now, so i just removed the jon from the trona...
so thats where the name came from...'trona' without 'jon'!
so thats where the name came from...'trona' without 'jon'!
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