questions??

where exactly does a relationship end? i have ended too many relationships in my life. sometimes there were good reasons, sometimes just because i felt like it. but exactly when do you feel like it? what's the time span for a good relationship to end? for me, it seems it's only 2 or 2.5 years at maximum. it starts with constantly blaming each other, feeling guilty, and getting angry with self for feeling guilty...it's almost a never ending process. as for me, i'd hate to go through this once again. but sometimes situation compels you to. no, lets not blame it on situations, it's me only. i was always an escapist, always planning to run away; from everything, everyplace, sometimes even from myself. i don't know where i want to run to. and that is a big problem. a relationship needs special care, and as care is a word that does not exist in my dictionary, i can't ever keep a relationship. that's pretty scary. but living alone also has it's charms. i guess. then again, what's the point of keeping a relationship which requires nurturing? i mean, if a relationship is not strong on it's own, shouldn't you just end it right there? yah, i'm asking too many questions. i do that when i feel like shit. no, wrong. i do that all the time. i mean asking questions. means i feel like shit all the time. thats true. kinda.