Tuesday, April 29, 2008

positive thinking...my foot!

i've decided to look at life positively and now i can't find anything to write about. all i want to write about is how i find everything and everybody so fake and shallow, and i keep thinking, no, i decided to be positive...i shouldn't write these stuffs. well, how do you make your eyes see positive things when everything before you is so shallow and fake? i dont have any idea. may be it's my point of view...i always see the empty portion of the glass, even if it's 98% full. but still, if something is fake, it's fake right? it's so fucking fake, so where the hell's the 98% REAL thing that should be there? well, now i'm swearing. so much for my positive thoughts!

nothing much going on in my life, i mean, except for seeing those bad stuffs about ppl and things. tipu bhai went away. he was our teamleader, and the oslo client has hired him permanently. it's creepy. living in oslo. it's too clean, too without people, too tidy for me. i want some pollution, and people. loads of people around me so that i can be invisible amidst them. anyways tipu bhai left yesterday, and surprisingly, i felt bad. this guy was a pain in the ass sometimes, but still, he somehow balanced a totally imbalanced team. without him, the team would not be the same anymore. and weirdly enough, i'll miss him.

i need to read, i need to read, i have so many books unread. i think i need counselling too. i think i'm a psychopath! nope, i should be positive...i think i am a ...a ...or may be it should be an 'an'...i think im an...umm...errr... well, what the heck!

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