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sometimes when i listen to a good song, i want to die. it doesn't matter whether the song is depressing or full of hopes and dreams...it makes me want to die right then and there because it strikes me how impossible it is to listen to all the beautiful songs in this world, and how it is pointless even to try as the list is never ending. some people might find optimism in this, like they would want to live for these wonderful songs still unknown to them, to discover those songs one by one as they get older. but i don't. to me, when i listen to a beautiful song that touches my heart, i always have this strong desire to find and listen to this kind of heart touching, brings-tears-to-my-eyes music, and then i realize that songs like this are endless and there's a 99% possibility of passing my whole life without listening to 99% percent of these beautiful songs. who knows, may be one of those unheard songs could've changed my life completely, may be i would be a totally different person then, a person who knows how to love, how to live. so what's the point of living, i ask myself. myself answers, can't think of any. and then i decide to die.