i'm getting too much angry these days over silly things. these days = last couple of days, still continuing. in fact anger is not the right word, it's this rage over everything i see...it quite amazes me sometimes. a girl gets shot on the border by indian border guards, i feel sad and a bit angry. but i have this hulk like anger when i see all the neo-intellectuals posting all kinds of oh-i'm-so-angry-at-the-indian-government stuffs. it's been going on for quite a while now. indian border guards like shooting our people. if we were a bigger economy than india, we would've shot indian people illegally crossing the border. it's happening all over the world, and nothing can be done about it. so why shed these crocodile tears? this time everybody was concerned, as it was a girl. as if girls getting shot is a different thing altogether. come on people, you are writing this while bollywood stars are dancing on your tv, hindi songs blaring from your speakers, and one block from your road, a 'gaye-holud' program is going on where a 10 year old is dancing to some not-so-children-friendly song from a hindi movie. hypocrites! today was another day. woke up, and found out a report by daily star which shows how a teacher works in the field to feed his family. why does he do this? because the madrasa he works in is not approved by the government, so they don't get any allowance from the government, and thus, no salary. oh dear! what a catastrophe! my facebook homepage is flooded with that link, some angry comments, some frustration over the country, and blog links where our intellectuals are oh-so-anxious about our 'system'. gawd! we are all worried about the system! we all know the system is shit. please please say something newwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! wow, new has 'ew' inbuilt in it. never noticed.

writing a blog now was a bad idea. writing anything is a bad idea with all this rage inside me. logic doesn't work when you're angry. but why the hell am i so angry? i don't know. i wish i was hulk, i think wrecking a dozen of buildings and hundreds of cars would kind of make me feel better.